Don't Cry

           Just a quick update on the MRI: it was approved, and I was scheduled to get it done this last Wednesday here in Amarillo.  At the last minute though, my doctor called and advised me to wait until we’re in Dallas next week to get it done there.  She advises this for two reasons: first of all, there’s a HIGH chance I will need to deliver there anyway, so we may as well have the doctors there see me and the baby and start getting things figured out.  The second reason is that the radiologist in Dallas will actually sit down with us after the MRI and go over all the findings and help us sort out what needs to be done for our baby.  In short, we SHOULD have a lot more answers by the time our appointment is done in Dallas.  I am NOT holding my breath that we’ll have all the answers, but I think we’ll have a more complete picture of what we’re looking at and then we can come up with a better plan.  Sooo….we wait until August 7^th for more information!
                So, you may or may not have noticed that I really LOVE music.  Music conveys my feelings in ways that I often cannot, and I feel closer to my Heavenly Father by listening to music than by doing just about anything else.  This can be a blessing and a curse all at the same time.  For instance, if you ever happen to see me in sacrament meeting, it’s all I can do these days to get through ANY hymn without tears rolling down my cheeks.  The music is just so full of the spirit and the words are often exactly what I need to be reminded of in that moment.  This is good for obvious reasons, but also bad because sometimes I’m just not in the mood to turn into a blubbering idiot in public!  During those times, I just sit there, trying not to think about what I’m singing.  Then I feel like a shaken soda bottle, hoping I can hold it all inside and not explode all over everyone around me.  Good times! 
                 Many of my blog posts relate to a song that I heard somewhere or that means a lot to me and has helped me through things.  This blog post is no different!  I heard a song last Sunday that continues to stay with me and I just wanted to share it here.
                Every year, the Mormon Tabernacle Choir puts on a Pioneer Day Concert to celebrate when church pioneers entered the Salt Lake Valley in 1847.  The concert isn’t ABOUT pioneers, it’s really just an excuse to have a wonderful concert, and they always bring in guest performers who are also Mormon to sing with the choir.  This year’s guest performers were Lindsey Sterling, a youtube hip-hop violinist and Nathan Pacheco, a singer.  I was especially excited to hear about Nathan because he was in my church congregation the year Brock and I met and we both got to know him.  I even played the piano for him when he sang in sacrament meeting, which my kids thought was the COOLEST thing ever.  We have followed his career as it has grown and have been so excited to see him progressing.  He is the NICEST guy and has the most AMAZING voice!  Anyway, we found out awhile ago that he was going to be in this concert, so we’ve been so excited to watch.  He did not disappoint!  I was seriously so excited for him!
                One of the first songs he sang is a song he wrote called “Don’t Cry.”  This song absolutely took my breath away!  I don’t know if you remember one of my first blog posts about reading the story of Nephi and realizing that the Lord would lead us to our own promised land?  I feel like Nathan could have written these words EXACTLY for me in this moment, with those thoughts.  I feel like he has written words that the Savior speaks to all of us whenever we are struggling through difficult times:

Don't cry, don't cry though hope seems gone.

Don't cry, This battle still can be won
And all these tears, that blind and cloud your day..
Will fall to the ground, your heavy fears will fade away.
Hold on, until the journey's end.
Hold on, this broken heart too will mend
Reach out, I'll come and take your hand
One day, Your darkest seas will lead to promised land.
Hold on, let it pass you by;
Hold on don't quit, you've got the angels by your side
Your heart is strong enough to see this battle won
Your faith will make the morning come.
Don't cry, I'll see this journey through
Don't cry, I'll cross through storms to find you
And carry you home, to never go away...
To rest from the storm, and find a joy that passes healing to the pain.
Hold on, let it pass you by ;
Hold on don't quit, you've got the angels by your side
Your heart is strong enough to see this battle won
Your faith will make the morning come.
Your faith will bring the rising sun.
 

 

           Even when times are hard, I BELIEVE THESE WORDS WITH ALL MY HEART!